Kuv lub plawv yog hnyav. Kuv paub Vaj tswv zoo, Thiab uas nws yog tswj, tab sis kuv lub plawv yog hnyav.
Xya hnub tom qab cov txheej xwm nyob rau hauv Ferguson (thiab cov lus teb rau nws rau kev tawm), Ua rau kuv muaj burdened sau ib zaj kwv txhiaj. Kuv lub hom phiaj tsis yog ua tej nqe lus pej xeem nrog los yog declarations, tab sis yuav qhia qhov uas txhua yam ua rau kuv xav. Li ntawd, kuv pib sau ntawv, thiab qhov no yog dab tsi tuaj. Cov sentiment uas echoed nyob hauv kuv lub siab yog: "Nws twb tau kuv."
Kuv muaj ib tug ncej tseem npaj rau li cas Christians yuav teb rau lub sij hawm zoo li no, Tab sis tom qab cov xov xwm hais txog Eric Garner nag hmo, Kuv txiav txim siab tos thiab ncej uas tom qab. Tamsim no, Kuv cia li xav hais tias kuv muaj ib lub plawv hnyav. Kuv tsis nyiam debates los yog sib cam tamsim no. Kuv cia li xav kom txoj kev ywj ywj im qhia kuv mob.
Kuv tabtom ua vim tias Eric Garner yees duab yog ntsoog loj heev saib. Thaum kuv poj niam thiab kuv xub saib nws lub hlis dhau los, Peb ob leeg quaj. Lub neej yog ib tug zoo nkauj phij cuam, thiab nws yog sobering saib tias lub neej cia ib tug neeg lub cev — tshwj xeeb tshaj yog thaum nws noj los ntawm lwm tus txiv neej. Kuv xav tias, “Surely people can’t get away with that. At least they’ll have to answer for their actions at a trial.”
I thought wrong. And that hurts.
I’m hurting because it’s dangerous to be a black man in America. I know that statement alone is offensive to some people, but it’s objectively true.
I’m hurting because black communities are hurting, limping along because of many complex issues.
I’m hurting because of the strange run-ins I’ve had with the cops in the past.
I’m hurting because every black man I know has had similar run-ins.
I’m hurting because the bad cops make it harder for the good cops to do the important work they’ve been called to.
I’m hurting because I have to teach my son the same thing my father had to teach me: “People will assume you’re a threat before they know anything about you, so you have to be more careful than your white friends do.”
I’m hurting because some people don’t care. They’d rather win an argument than hurt with those who hurt.
I’m hurting because authorities are not immune to the sin and brokenness that plague the rest of us. When those who are called to police wrongdoing are guilty of it themselves, where do we turn? I rejoice because I have someone greater to turn to, and I have hope because God will bring justice in the end. But that doesn’t mean I’m not hurting.
I’m hurting because the tragedies that get media coverage aren’t the only tragedies. There are many more.
For my friends that don’t understand, please take the time to listen and sympathize. Being “quick to listen and slow to speak” is a mark of humility and maturity. Before you object, take a moment to hear from those who are hurting.
So many of us are hurting because we think to ourselves, “It could’ve been me.”
*Read the lyrics to the song ntawm no