我個心係沉重嘅. 我知道上帝係好嘅, 他控制住, 但我心係沉重嘅.
上周在弗格森的事件之後 (以及對社會媒體嘅回應), 我感到負擔寫首歌. 我既目標唔係做任何偉大的聲明或聲明, 而是表達一切讓我感覺嘅方式. 所以我開始寫, 係乜出嚟. 在我腦海中囘盪嘅情緒係: "可能係我。
我有一個完整的帖子準備如何基督徒應該喺咁嘅鐘數反應, 可喺琴日埃里克. 加納嘅新聞之後, 我決定等待, 然後張貼之後,. 目前為止, 我淨係想講我有一顆沉重的心. 我而家對辯論同拗唔感興趣. 我淨係想自由表達我的傷痛.
我好傷心, 因為埃里克加納視頻係毀滅性的觀看. 幾個月前我同我老婆第一次睇既時候, 我們都哭了. 生活系一份美麗的禮物, 睇住生命離開某人嘅身體係清醒嘅, 尤其是當人將佢帶走的時候。. 我以為, “Surely people can’t get away with that. At least they’ll have to answer for their actions at a trial.”
I thought wrong. And that hurts.
I’m hurting because it’s dangerous to be a black man in America. I know that statement alone is offensive to some people, but it’s objectively true.
I’m hurting because black communities are hurting, limping along because of many complex issues.
I’m hurting because of the strange run-ins I’ve had with the cops in the past.
I’m hurting because every black man I know has had similar run-ins.
I’m hurting because the bad cops make it harder for the good cops to do the important work they’ve been called to.
I’m hurting because I have to teach my son the same thing my father had to teach me: “People will assume you’re a threat before they know anything about you, so you have to be more careful than your white friends do.”
I’m hurting because some people don’t care. They’d rather win an argument than hurt with those who hurt.
I’m hurting because authorities are not immune to the sin and brokenness that plague the rest of us. When those who are called to police wrongdoing are guilty of it themselves, where do we turn? I rejoice because I have someone greater to turn to, and I have hope because God will bring justice in the end. But that doesn’t mean I’m not hurting.
I’m hurting because the tragedies that get media coverage aren’t the only tragedies. There are many more.
For my friends that don’t understand, please take the time to listen and sympathize. Being “quick to listen and slow to speak” is a mark of humility and maturity. Before you object, take a moment to hear from those who are hurting.
So many of us are hurting because we think to ourselves, “It could’ve been me.”
*Read the lyrics to the song 呢度